Soggy but Sober

I still haven't found my voice here yet.

I am still sober. So grateful.

Life is good even with the tremendous amount of rain we've been having for weeks, even though it's barely in the 60's in the middle of June, even though all this crazy weather makes my fibromyalgia scream.

My kids are doing good, all are now enjoying summer vacation.

JR and I are doing better. I don't know what it was but since the relapse something changed. Maybe because I was more open?

Work is starting to pick up a little.

My Mack Daddy puppy dog is doing well too. I just love him and he loves me.

Hope all is well with you and I hope to get back to visiting blogs again.

Time To Be Honest

AA is an honest program so take a look to your right and check out the new sobriety date.

Yes, I relapsed. For 4 days, 4 days of craziness and misery.

Glad to be back in the fold again.

I take full responsibility. No excuses.

I'm Here

• I am still sober
• Just been busy with life
• The spring lacrosse season is winding to a close
• I am ready for things to slow down again
• My fibromyalgia has been off the hook the last few weeks
• Some days I just don't know how to deal with the pain but yet I do
• I am sensitive to weather changes, I can predict rain better then any meteorologist
• I have a new sponsor, she and I could not be more different but we seem to fit
• Trevor has been getting in trouble in school and has been a real shit here at home at times
• His teachers are suggesting testing for ADD or ADHD
• How much is it just being a hormonal 13 year old boy?
• I am looking forward to the end of the school year, I need a break from dragging kids out of the house by 7:15, homework, projects
• Abby has lacrosse tournaments the first weekend of June in Ocean City, MD, I'm hoping for lots of sun and good times
• I hope to one day get back into blogging again, I'm around, lurking in the background, just staying quiet for some reason

What I've Been Doing

All is well.

Life

• One of Trevor's best friends-Chase-lost his father in a car accident on the 15th
• He was responding to a fire call
• The funeral was amazing, firetrucks and companies from all over lined the streets of Sudlersville
• When they had the last call come across the scanner, there wasn't a dry eye
• It was an emotionally draining weekend but I am so thankful to have been there to support the family
• Ally was officially diagnosed with having migraines last week, she is on medication that she takes daily at bedtime and then imitrex for when she has severe ones
• I had to pick her up yesterday from school because she was having one, she took the imitrex when she got home and slept all afternoon. She is home again today. The imitrex works but makes her too tired to function.
• Tomorrow is Abby's 11th birthday
• We've been having more and more warm weather, finally!
• I am meeting with a holisitc nutritionist today, she's going to help teach me how to manage my fibromyalgia naturally
• I've been having some truly humbling experiences lately, can't say I'm enjoying them a whole lot but I know that I will only grow and learn from them
• Sorry I don't visit blogs and comment, I do keep track of y'all though

Fun Day

Today I had one of those moments where I see what being sober has given me.

My son turned 13 yesterday which means I now have two teenagers in my home. God help me! Anyway, Trevor had some friends come over today. So I have spent most of my day laughing and enjoying the rowdiness of several 13 year old boys.

Last year Trevor and Abby (whose birthday is on the 22nd) did not have big birthdays, I was newly sober and completely unable to deal with a bunch of kids.

This year I was a little apprehensive, mainly because it was raining and I did not want to stay cooped up in the house with a bunch of rowdy, buzzing out on sugar boys.

But the weather cooperated and we were able to go to a lacrosse game. We then went to Pizza Hut and fed 10 people with $50, I thought that was pretty darn good. And since we had some daylight left, we took them to the park where they played until the guy came to lock the gates at dark.

I enjoyed it. I was grateful.

Now I just need to get through Easter at my in-laws tomorrow.

Good

Life seems to be getting in the way of my blogging. In a good way so I can't complain.

I am still basking in the glow from my AA anniversary. I was not expecting the amount of people who came. When I pulled up to the church I was shocked at the amount of cars. I was nervous in a BIG way. But I got through it.

Things have been good and I'm trying to enjoy it.

I'm working on really living in the moment, no projecting, no making mountains out of mole hills. I'm working on trusting God and that He will always take care of me and that His will is way better then my own. Easier said then done but I'm trying.

Spring is trying to make it's appearance. Buds are on the trees, we've had some warm sunny days and I'm liking it.

I'm completely off Lyrica now that my back is so much better due to physical therapy and exercise. I took my first class in the pool last week and loved it. When I'm done physical therapy I'm going to join the gym so I can continue with all I've learned.

Lacrosse season started over the weekend so now my calendar is full of lacrosse practices and games.

Today is the noon meeting that I co-chair and I'm still pondering a topic. Tonight my friend Lisa celebrates 2 years.

As you can tell, my life is pretty normal right now. No drama, thank you God! and I'm trying to just be and not anticipate when the next shoe will drop.

Life is just good.