Today I have one month. It's kinda weird to say that since I've already had one month before, I actually remember getting my chip. Anyway, need to keep my focus on today.
Summer is just moving along for us. Ally has a job and works 4-5 days a week, she's making good money-saving some and spending some. Trevor is finishing travel lacrosse this weekend, he has a tournament in Walkersville,MD and because it's a bit far for us to travel back and forth we are staying nearby in Frederick. Football starts next week so there is no down time, Trev says he won't play travel lacrosse next summer because he wants a break in between spring lacrosse and football. Suits me just fine. Abby is enjoying the Twilight series of books, she's like me and loves to read.
JR and I are, well, trying. We are caught in a tug of war. I keep taking my will back in this situation and of course, it is not getting better. The Family Afterwards describes us to a T in the first few paragraphs.
I don't know how to mend this. I feel like I should be doing something.
I have alot I'd love to say here but I just can't find the words. It's hard for me to see how broken our family has become.
Even so, the desire to drink has been lifted from me and I am so grateful for that. Even though life is off kilter, I know that it will be ok. Somehow. For that I am grateful.
I cannot, I will not, I won't
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